my choice....is...wudevar...haha

so ,today is boring as usual...no more fun mass convos like on friday..haha,mass convos are fun!at least i found out.well,i had like a days break,throats still killing me and stuffs like tat.forgetting the person i should forget.sigh,everday is a messed up shit.tmrw got math tution...it sucks....then the day aft tmrw is back to hell,where there is a war between like tis 2 girls,and the fact tat i am a loser and outkasted can be seen,at least i love being outkasted cuz,its better not to be reconigzed then BEING reconigzed and gettin in to trouble with all those girls who can beat u up when u make trouble.i am writing tis cuz,i noe they dun read my blog...as usual,my blog is outkasted like me.i think i wouldn't have minded on ending my life.cuz,my parents seem to lecture me everyday and i gettin sick of it.i am gettin sick of skool,it feels like hell when last time it felt like home(in p6),now i just wanna get out of there.i am still livein now for 3 reason.1st,because of my grandma..i can't leave..shes the only one i noe,who lives her life like minee..lonely..i feel realli bad 4 always not being there with her..shes always happy.the 2nd reason is my dog,he is always there for me all the time..and 3rd my closest fren in the world..pearlyn and cheryl.always brightening me up and also becuz they remind me i got a job to do.doing something i love.making music.its becuz of the band.ampersand,becuz of tis,it is one of the majar thing in life i live for.so many bands inspire me,so many bands taught me.they taught me how we can communicate through music.all da messages we want to send abt wars,global warming and stuff can wrk.maybe becuz of this i actually live.well,enough abt me,i gtg and dream and continue to read the bk p.s i love u.love tat bk..cizo!